the closer i get, the farther i have to go

Jacket: Free People Daytrip Bomber (similar) | Bodysuit: Topshop | Jeans: Vintage Guess (similar)| Belt: Vintage | Booties: Steve Madden (similar)

Can it just be Spring already!? While it seems like every other city is finally starting to warm up, Toronto was faced with an ice storm last week, which kept me inside the entire weekend (which wasn’t the worst thing since I ended up streaming Coachella live on YouTube all weekend).  How depressing is it that it’s already mid April and this is what we still have to deal with? Fingers crossed for warmer and sunnier days ahead, hopefully much, much sooner rather than later.

In the mean time, I’m looking back at these pictures which were taken on a much nicer and sunnier day. Even though the weather was nice outside on this day, these pictures kind of give me a melancholic feeling – kind of like how I’m sure everyone in Toronto feels right now about the lack of Spring weather.

For this outfit, I decided to rock this super fun, printed bomber. I’m sure we all know that bombers have been trendy for the last two years or so. But what makes this bomber different from the rest of them is definitely the print and the colours! Most of the ones that we’ve seen are either plain black or olive green coloured, or the Japanese silk bombers with a Tiger or some kind of graphic on the back. I absolutely adore how this Free People bomber has so many different colours in it, but they’re muted so that it’s not too flashy. The colours combined with the floral and paisley print of it gives this otherwise street style outerwear piece a very bohemian vibe, which you guys know is what I’m all about. Definitely check out Free People if you’re looking for a fun, statement jacket for Spring (I’ve linked a similar one above)!

Since this jacket is such a statement piece on it’s own, I wanted to keep the rest of the outfit pretty simple. I paired it with this lilac coloured bodysuit to go along with the bits of light purple in the jacket. The light-washed high waist mom jeans which I wear with almost everything really help to make the outfit very Spring appropriate by keeping with the lighter colour scheme. For shoes, you can never go wrong with black booties. They go well with this look because it helps to tie the entire outfit together since the jacket has some black in it as well. And I can’t forget about this white leather vintage belt. This is literally my most worn belt. I love that it’s white because we don’t see white belts too often, and the gold hardware just makes it look so classy and put together. All in all, a perfect Springtime look if you ask me!

So I mentioned earlier that there’s just something about these pictures that kind of makes me feel melancholic, so I figured I should also feature a song this week that gives me the same feeling. You & I by Local Natives does just that. Actually, quite a lot of Local Natives songs do that for me, but You & I is one of my faves. I’ve already mentioned Local Natives a few times on this blog now, so I’m sure you guys know how much I love them. They’re one of my favourite bands after all.

You & I is about a relationship in which the individual’s feelings about it have changed. Where one individual perhaps has fallen out of love, and the other is still in love, trying to salvage what’s left.  In other words, a relationship in which there is no reciprocation. We all know that relationships only work when there’s reciprocation on both ends, so this song explores the loneliness and emptiness that one feels when they don’t receive the same love back. I’m sure we all feel the rainbows and butterflies during the early stages of a new relationship, but the hardest part is what comes after that stage. The line “when did your love go cold?” just reinforces how an individual’s feelings can diminish and they can lose interest in a relationship over time, once the honeymoon stage is over. It’s just how it goes.  And of course, it is so painful when you’re the person on the other end still trying to hang on to the relationship. Trying to be “closer” to your significant other, but in the end, all you feel after all your efforts is “the farther I have to go” due to the lack of reciprocation.

Wow, I didn’t mean for this blog post to sound so depressing. But just remember, life will always be filled with ups and downs. A quote I read the other day reminded me of why it’s so important to just feel, whether it be feelings of happiness or sadness. It said that “not to feel is to stop the heart from breathing”.  Just being able to feel is part of human nature. Whether you’re the person falling out of love, or you’re the person trying to salvage the relationship, just know that however you feel for the other person, you cannot control.  It’s so important to just be honest with our ourselves and each other, and to just allow our hearts to feel what it needs to in order to lead us in the right direction.  When we go through the bad times and feel pain, anger or sadness, it’s so that we can appreciate the good times and the feelings of happiness, joy and love that much more.

On that note, I hope everyone is feeling all the happiness and joy out there today!